What started out as a great plan with lots of ideas has fizzled out a little bit. This is due to many things but in essence, my mood has been too low to be truly creative and have the energy to make all the things that I want to make and to spend time making my home as beautiful as I'd like to.
Recently I've been visiting a few of my finance's friend's homes and it has depressed me no end seeing how beautiful their homes are. But that's not our fault. We've gone through so much and had to flee our home so we don't have the means to do what they've done. A lot of them have lived where they are for years and been together double the time we have been so it makes sense that they have 'grown up' and lovely homes, but I can't help a little bit of the green eyed monster being around.
I know things will get better. They have to get better.
I keep saying this to myself and I have to believe it: The hard time will make the good times better and the tough times will make us stronger as a couple and as a family when that time comes. If we can get through what we've been through in our lives so far then we can do anything we want to!
Instead of focusing on what I haven't got, I'd like to focus on what I do have - right now.
I have a wonderful fiancé who loves me just as much as I love him and I can't wait to become his wife (whenever we can manage to pull a wedding together).
I have my fantastic little Roofus, my playful boy who gives the best cuddles.
My amazingly beautiful Dakota, with her love of cuddles and her swishy little tail
And I have one slice of my delicious (and first ever) Victoria Sponge cake left in the fridge!
I might not have a lot - but what I do have is enough to make me smile today.
Now....what to rename this blog?
I don't know about renaming the blog but I will say I am totally now where you are coming from with the home jealousy thing. We've been in this house for 6 years now and I haven't even got round to getting rid of the disgusting pink wallpaper in our bedroom yet!!! It would be lovely to throw some money at it and transform every room into my dream home just like on the home makeover tv programmes but we don't have any money. All we have is time. Take your time honey, just remember whatever you do you will do with love, a little bit here, a little bit there and before you know it your home will take shape. Also remember it's not just the decor that makes a home, it's all the happy memories too xx
ReplyDeleteWe could certainly use some happy memories after everything we've been through!!
DeleteIt's funny that we wish for whay we domt have. My husband and i used to be dirt poor. We are not rich, but are pretty comfortable. It takes alot of time and energy though and we long for the good old days when we had a much simpler and happier life. You are right to love what you have. I ran across your blog while looking for a disney turkey leg recipe.
ReplyDeleteI typed this on my tiny little ipad keyboard- i swear i am not drinking!
DeleteSo many people find this blog through that post :) Maybe I should do some more Disney related posts :D I think it's human nature to wish for what you don't have, however I don't think I'll ever look back on this past year and wish for any of it back!
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